My feelings right now that I am home

You know all of that determination I had when it came to going to school and getting my homework done? Yeah, it all went out the window when I had a baby. I have NO desire to get my work done now, and the semester is almost over. I keep thinking to myself that I am never going to school the same semester that I am pregnant ever again. Then I remembered that I can't get pregnant any more. And that makes me want to say "screw it" even more to school and go visit my baby in the NICU.